去年我為我不認識的人哭了很多。大衛·鮑伊、凱莉·費舍爾和喬治·邁克爾都去世了，他們是我童年的重要組成部分。我從小就喜歡星球大戰，聽各種各樣的音樂，所以在2016年所有名人的死亡中，這些對我個人來說是最具毀滅性的。他們也奇怪地啟發。

這些損失讓我想起了我是如何長大的，以及我生活中的許多奇怪的事情，這些事情把我帶到了我現在的位置。想一想，如果你願意的話。當我33歲的時候，我意識到我的大部分時間都在網上度過了。對我（快）15歲的女兒來說，這是很自然的事，當我看到她每分鐘傳送數百條即時聊天時，我每天使用Twitter就顯得很平靜。在網際網路上成長是現在青少年的常態，但當我還是青少年的時候，我沒有意識到我在幫助塑造網際網路現在的樣子。我也沒有意識到我留下了一條數字線索。

我回過頭來尋找我網路生活的早期例子，發現了一個真正可怕的發現。我16歲時建立了一個小部落格，當時它被稱為“咆哮頁面”。下麵是一個關於頁面的例子，請閱讀併為我哭泣：

Hello there and thanks very much for visiting my site. This is the section where you can find out about me and this whole site.

Lots of people have asked me why I don't have an about me page .. well it was simply because I forgot and couldn't be bothered to put one in.

So here goes... enjoy!

My name is Tom Warren and I live in a **all town in London. I like to hang out with my mates, have a laugh, get slaughtered (by drink!) and generally fool around. I live with my Mum and Dad and also my sister at home. I am only 16 years old, I say this because many of you think I am older and don't realise! You may notice (if you read the updates) that I still go to school also. This is a real bore for me and I can't take it any more so at the end of this year (after my GCSE's) I hope to not go back and start up my own business. Since I started making web sites I have had the dream of making them professionally and getting made thousands or milli*** for making sites for top companies. I would love this because this is one of my few talents that I possess. The basic reasoning for starting up this site was because of my friend Billy. He said "make a rants page" and I did. Before it I had a shitty one which you can view in the archives of this site. Since then I haven't looked back and this page has grown from 5 or so people viewing it to over 200 in a day viewing it. I have had people from over 40 countries visiting my site.

From this web site malarkey I have made a name for my self "cooltom123". I have every possible email address that I can with it. I am now also an Editor for some top search engines like Alta Vista, Hot Bot and Lycos. I hope my popularity on the internet grows in size so that more and more people know me and can get in touch with me.

Recently I have started a page named south London sounds. This can be found at South London Sounds. Its a brand new site focusing mainly on garage music in the London area. I like garage music as well as trance, techno, a little Indy and some rock. The best thing about the Internet in my eyes is the fact that I can download loads of music. Mp3 is the present and will be the future of music.

This page:

The design of this page took hours of hard work like getting the graphics in the perfect place and making sure it is user friendly by getting a few kids I know to test it out. I hope you like the main page because as I say it did take long! If you would like to know about how to get good looking pages etc or even if you just wanna know how to do something in HTML then feel free to email me at anytime. If I get a lot of resp***e I may make a new page entitled "toms top tips"! Who knows!

If you are making a new page then good luck. If you are feeling bored and tired cause you can't get something write don't give up cause you can do it and after a while it will become natural to write any HTML you need.

I can't view your page that well!

Ok this page was designed to be friendly with Internet Explorer. I use things called scripts which don't always load as well in Netscape but bear with me cause you can still view my page ok with out Internet Explorer. Also my page may look "bulky", this is because of screen resolution. You are currently running a screen resolution of 1500 x 1000 1152 x 864 and the recommended screen resolution is 1024 x 768. Please change it to the recommended screen resolution or above. To also view my page you need 16bit or higher colours which is standard in most computers so not to worry there. Well thats all the technical jargon done with now get stuck into my page properly and I'll see ya around!

More of me I hear you cry! Email me if ya wanna talk to me more cause my hands are hurting now.

See ya folks!

讓我們把這個畏縮的寶藏分解成一些關於我16歲的自己的要點：

• 我的暱稱是酷酷123
• 我過去喜歡被人（酒後）宰殺
• 我認為網際網路最好的東西是免費的MP3，而不是色情
• 我曾是一些名為altavista和Lycos的“頂級搜尋引擎”的編輯
• 我打了糟糕的英語後手很痛
• 我想在網上受歡迎

如果你想僱用我，並且發現了這些資訊，你可能會在扔掉我的申請表之前翻白眼。我顯然需要一個16歲的編輯，因為我對英語的驚人運用。但我還沒決定我的漫談是尷尬、討人喜歡，還是兩者兼而有之。更讓我感興趣的是，在Myspace、AOL WebBlogs、Gawker和WordPress出現之前，我就開始寫部落格了。我從來沒有想過上大學學習新聞或媒體，但我非常高興每天都能釋出關於我的學校生活和我許多很酷的電子郵件地址的最新訊息。

除了好玩，更重要的是我的日記還在網上。這兩次讓我在很小的時候就陷入了麻煩：一個上學的孩子想把我打到2020年，因為他不喜歡我的一句“咆哮”，還有一個大公司強迫我賣掉我的域名，因為我用了一個受保護的流行字型名。撇開律師不談，如果你的聊天記錄或照片的資料庫洩露了，這與現在可能發生的情況相比，是相對較小的風險。

現在分享一張照片或一個你可能會後悔的想法太容易了。我不後悔我年輕時犯的很多錯誤，但我仍然不想讓人們知道我最近醒來時床上放著烤羊肉串，或者在我15歲的時候痴迷地收集豆豆寶寶，現在還在我家裡。這些都是朋友和家人可以嘲笑的私人時刻，而不是全世界可以評判和嘲笑的時刻。

我分享的也許比我這個年齡的平均水平還要多，在網際網路逐漸影響世界的過程中，我公開地生活在網際網路上。我看到了Facebook和iPhone的崛起，MySpace和BlackBerry的消亡。在所有這些巨大的變化中，網際網路一直是不變的。一直在那裡，一直在傾聽。現在沒有什麼能扼殺網際網路，它和管道和電力一樣對我們的日常生活至關重要。

當我16歲的時候，想到你把你的假日照片放在網上的任何地方，我都覺得很恐怖。一想到那個神祕人在當地一家照片處理公司沖洗我的膠卷，我就心驚膽戰，更不用說網上一群隨機的人盯著我那鬆鬆垮垮的**了。感覺像我這個年紀的人現在都在Facebook、Twitter和Instagram上分享一切。青少年對他們的分享習慣更是過分，沒有跡象表明這會改變或減緩。作為人類，我們是多管閑事、善於交際的人，他們想知道世界各地的鄰居在乾什麼。

什麼時候分享太多了？我想在我有生之年，你可以去酒吧，給陌生人拍照，瞭解他們的名字、興趣和收入潛力，我們都會接受這種便利，因為我們忙碌的生活繼續被聯絡和更新的需求所消耗。Facebook已經擁有強大的面部識別能力，不管你喜歡與否，你的臉可能是資料庫的一部分。

我不想在16年的時間裡回顧我寫過或分享過的東西，再次畏縮，但我知道這是不可避免的。如果說今年我有一件事要做的話，那就是體諒我在網上分享的東西，並把我對自己有多酷的想法牢牢地記在腦子裡。